For instance I am constantly embarrassed by what a beginner I still am at so many things even though I am middle-aged. And that embarrassment makes me never get better at those things because I am scared to be seen practicing or asking for help so I never do! This summer though I finally admitted I never learned to dive off a high diving board, and practiced doing it very lamely for a while, and then did it pretty well! It felt so great! I did it because I was trying to model for my kids that it's OK to not be great at something and need to work on it. And that's the other reason (besides getting good at stuff I always wanted to) that I am determined to embarrass myself more: because I think the more people see other people doing it, the less embarrassed they are to do it! I want to inspire some other middle-aged beginner to come out of the closet with his or her lack of competence and start taking those baby steps to mastery!
So here's my start. I don't know how to clean my house. I mean, I do it, but not well, and I'm never sure what I should be dusting or mopping or sweeping or scrubbing or vacuuming, and I probably do everything the least efficient way.
Also I don't know how to just get dinner on the table for the family without a big fuss. Coordinating all the steps -- planning a well-balanced meal everyone will eat, cooking it, setting the table, getting everyone to stop what they're doing and come to the table, serving it -- seems like a monumental task to me, and even when I manage to fight the overwhelming urge to shirk it and it actually happens, I spend the whole meal in a panic that I've forgotten something or else resentful that no one fully appreciates what I have pulled off. (Needless to say this is not conducive to pleasant family time at the table, which is the whole point.)
I could go on but I think I've embarrassed myself enough. And you know what? I'm proud of it! Admitting I stink at certain things feels like a load off. Maybe I'll even get some advice on how to get better at them. (If you've got some, bring it on!) I'll keep you posted!
On a less embarrassing/even prouder note, here are a couple of things I made this week.
And that's a wrap!
Thanks a lot and happy day!
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